Conspiracy & Cosmology: Questioning the World

06-01-26 June Musing Audio File for you Audiophiles!

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Several people have told me they experience my thinking as unusual, labeling it as “super smart” or suggesting that some of my musings feel abstract or difficult to grasp.  What feels like complexity to others often feels like pattern recognition to me - an ability to notice connections across systems.  Humans have patterns.  Study enough of us, and you see the same things repeat.

When I reference ideas drawn from quantum mechanics, I understand how easily they can sound detached from everyday concerns. Quantum language can feel confusing to what seems to be happening in someone else’s immediate world. But for me, it isn’t about physics formulas or academic abstraction, it’s about relationships. At its core, quantum theory simply reminds us that nothing exists independently and that separation is often an illusion. Those insights show up in our relationships, our health, our politics, and our spiritual lives.

I also recognize that my perspective is not universal. It has been shaped – slowly & patiently - by decades of yoga practice and immersion in shamanic cosmology. Yoga trained my nervous system to listen, to notice subtle cause & effect patterns between body, breath & brain. Shamanic worldviews taught me to perceive reality as layered rather than linear or hierarchical.  It also helped me hone a deeper connection with my spirit team and Source.  Over time, these practices rewired not just how I think, but how I perceive “reality”.

So, when my reflections seem “over someone’s head,” it’s not because I am smarter or more evolved, it’s because we are standing in different vantage points of the same landscape. I’m looking relationally, while others may be looking logically. Neither is wrong; they simply prioritize different dimensions of reality.

My intention isn’t to obscure, impress, or distance. It’s to offer a translation between worlds – to bridge the sacred & science.  To show how the mystical, the scientific, and the ordinary human experience are not separate, but different perspectives of the same truth. If my perspective feels strange, it’s because I’m straddling two worlds and hoping my readers will remember how deeply interconnected we already are.

Many people who are drawn to quantum language, mysticism, or alternative cosmologies are also drawn to conspiracy theories, at least initially.  That overlap isn’t accidental. Both emerge from a shared intuition that the narrative is incomplete. Humans are natural pattern-recognizers, and when institutions lose credibility, the mind searches for hidden connections to restore coherence and meaning.

This is where perspective becomes especially relevant. Decades of embodied practice such as mindfulness, breathwork & ritual train the nervous system to tolerate ambiguity without panic; the ability to stay calm WITHIN the chaos. Quantum ideas, yogic practice, and shamanic cosmology don’t offer secret answers, they ask us to stay curious.  They cultivate the ability to hold paradox without rushing to conclusions.  Rather than pointing to the wizard/lizard behind the curtain, you’re pointing to the curtain itself.  It’s about asking how consciousness, fear, trauma, and belief shape what we think we see.  I’m pointing to the inner lens through which the world is interpreted and inviting discernment rather than belief.

Conspiracy theorists can be conservative, liberal or any other political stripe.  Male or female, rich or poor, well-educated or not.  They walk among us. They could be your friends, neighbors or loved ones. Who knows?  You may even be one yourself.

How many times have you been called or used the term "conspiracy theorist" in the past 5 years?

According to University of Chicago political science professors Eric Oliver and Thomas Wood, in any given year roughly half of Americans believe in at least one conspiracy theory. Their 2014 study found that 19% of Americans believed the U.S. government planned the 9/11 attacks to start a war in the Middle East, 24% believed former president Barack Obama was not born in the United States, and 25% believed Wall Street bankers conspired to cause the financial crisis that began in 2008.  And 60 years after President John F. Kennedy was assassinated, 65% of Americans believe that Lee Harvey Oswald did not act alone according to a 2023 Gallup poll. Interestingly, that number has not dropped below 50% since Gallup began polling on the subject just after the 1963 tragedy.

A theory is "a supposition or a system of ideas intended to explain something, especially one based on general principles independent of the thing to be explained." A conspiracy is secrecy.

The phrase “conspiracy theory” existed long before the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) helped popularize it.  It appears in English as early as the late 1800s and was used neutrally in academic, legal, and journalistic writing to describe theories involving secret plots. Back then, it carried no automatic insult attached to it.

In 1967, the CIA circulated an internal memo, often referred to as Document 1035-960, encouraging media and institutions to counter critics of the official JFK assassination narrative.  That memo recommended framing critics as driven by bias, political motives, or faulty reasoning. While it did not invent the term “conspiracy theorist”, it explicitly weaponized it using it as a rhetorical label to undermine credibility. From that point forward, the term increasingly took on a dismissive, stigmatizing meaning in popular culture.  It was repurposed as propaganda and intended as a conversation-stopper, a way to discredit questions without engaging in their substance.

The term Conspiracy Theorist is a classic example of how DARVO - Deny, Attack, Reverse the Victim & Offender - is used to discredit people telling the truth.  Some call it a Black Mirror technique (a type of divination called scrying).

Having a bias against conspiracies means one chooses NOT to investigate them.  They consider conspiracies as false from the outset.  With so many people worldwide believing in at least one conspiracy theory, they must be considered and investigated if one is to get to the truth.

A conspiracy theorist isn’t simply someone who believes different things; in theory, it should be someone open to multiple possibilities. If that were true, conspiracy culture would be a model of humility and intellectual curiosity. Instead, it often becomes the opposite. When you’re willing to entertain ideas most people reject, the responsibility should be to stay especially open and to question your own assumptions as carefully as you question official narratives. Too often, that doesn’t happen.

The real danger comes from people who CAN absorb competing ideas, revise their own thinking, and articulate new syntheses.

In 2018, I was speaking with a couple of yoga teachers to headline the 2020 Newtown Yoga Festival.  Both were survivors of unspeakable sexual abuse and one of them was an MK Ultra survivor.  That was my deep dive into trafficking, Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA), and heinous acts on babies & children (more next month).

In 2019, my spirit guides told me, “A nefarious bioweapon is coming.  It was made in a lab.”  I had no idea what that meant at the time.  Then the “pandemic” hit which Jon Rappoport calls the PLAN-demic.  In August 2020 in the height of lockdown, I reached out to my shaman siStars and shaman Puma Quispe for support after an emotional week learning about “reptilian” dark forces (NAA/Negative Alien Agenda) and how I could best be in service to humanity.

These were key existential moments that have shaped my current perspective.  Literally being locked down gave me much time to tap into my intuitive, spiritual side.

There are many “rabbit holes” that one can dive into.  But my spirit team has shared many truths with me about con-vid, the plan-demic, coverups, and other “conspiracies”.  I listen.  I use discernment and feel into my heart to see if it resonates at a soul level.  Whatever does not, I let it go.  Henri Bergson explains:  “Some are born with a spiritual immune system that sooner or later rejects the illusory worldview that has been forced on us from birth through social conditioning.  They begin to sense something is not right and search for answers.  Inner knowledge and anomalous external experiences reveal to them a side of reality that others do not perceive, and thus begins their journey of awakening. Every step on this journey is taken by following the heart instead of the crowd, and by choosing knowledge rather than the veil of ignorance.”

One reason for the pervasiveness of conspiracy theories is that they serve an important psychological function for people trying to cope with large, stressful events like a terrorist attack, pandemic, or a school shooting.  Conspiracy narratives offer emotional closure - it must be staged, controlled, or fake because the alternative is too destabilizing.

This is where the line between healthy skepticism and conspiracy ideology becomes unmistakable. Legitimate skepticism asks: What do we know? What don’t we know? How reliable are sources?  For example, the Sandy Hook hoaxers did the opposite. They began with a conclusion that “this is a false flag” and then selectively interpreted everything to defend that belief, dismissing eyewitnesses, medical records, court findings, and grieving parents as actors.

Distrust without evidence becomes dehumanization and pattern recognition without restraint becomes delusion.

Among the cognitive biases Jan-Willem van Prooijen and other psychologists believe contribute to the appeal of conspiracy theories are:

• Confirmation bias: People's willingness to accept explanations that fit what they already believe.

• Proportionality bias: The inclination to believe that big events must have big causes.

• Illusory pattern perception: The tendency to see causal relations where there may not be any.

Scott Compton shares:  “When anyone starts looking at data, patterns and cycles, we must consider all possibilities continually and into infinity's future, rather than cherry-picking what makes more sense in the here and now with the limited knowledge sets we may have. Here is why it's a needed skill to NEVER assume we have everything figured out about very complex topics that involve a great number of conditional nuances.”

“I believe conspiracy theories are part of a larger conspiracy to distract us from the real conspiracy.  String theory.”

~ Andy Kindler

If cosmology asks us to recognize interconnectedness, Sandy Hook hoaxers represent its inversion - the severing of empathy.  Sandy Hook isn’t just an example of false conspiracy, it’s a warning. When people lose the ability to say, “I might be wrong”, inquiry dies, and real people pay the price.

Of course, sometimes conspiracies turn out to be real.  Once dismissed as “conspiracy theories” many were later substantiated by documents, courts, or official admissions.  That doesn’t validate conspiracy thinking in general, but it does show why dismissal can be misleading.

Some examples: 

• When President Nixon tried to cover up the Watergate break-in.

• Iran-Contra Affair exposed that the Reagan administration sold arms to Iran to illegally fund the Contra rebels in Nicaragua.

• The Pentagon Papers reveals the U.S. government knowingly misled the public about the Vietnam War.

• The CIA really did test LSD on unwitting U.S. citizens through their MK Ultra mind-control experiments. 

• The U.S. government withheld treatment from black men with syphilis to study disease progression in the Tuskegee Syphilis Study.

• The FBI illegally surveilled, infiltrated & disrupted civil rights group through the COINTELPRO (Counter Intelligence Program) and NSA’s mass surveillance and data collection of citizens.

• Declassified plans of Operation Northwoods showed the U.S. military proposed false-flag attacks (never carried out, but REAL plans).

• The CIA influenced journalists and media outlets using Operation Mockingbird.

• Corporate cover-ups such as big tobacco hiding cancer risks, industries suppressing evidence of lead toxicity while marketing leaded products, and pharmaceutical companies misrepresenting addiction risks for opioids, ignoring early warning signs of the sedative thalidomide on birth defects, as well as hiding disturbing data regarding gene therapy (mRNA) injections.

“The government is corrupt on every level, but don’t worry – the government will investigate itself and tell you what really happened.”

The absence of evidence never got in the way of a good conspiracy theory!  However, what the examples above share is evidence – documents, whistleblowers, court rulings, or official admissions.  Some real conspiracies exist, but truth emerges through evidence, not belief alone.

The question I’ve been pondering since the 2020 “pandemic”…why did a small minority of people perceive the anomalies & implausibility’s of what we were being told by our government, while the majority were unable to spot the lies and fear mongering?

Here’s how you “connect the dots”:

1.      Pattern recognition

2.      Correlation

3.      Confirmation

4.      Documentation (undeniable)

5.      Predictability

These are universal steps and what I recognized as the plan-demic unfolded. 

If 2020 was the moment some of us first sensed the inconsistencies, then what we are witnessing now (2026) feels like the natural progression of that awareness. Once you train your mind to recognize patterns, track correlations, demand confirmation, document evidence, and test predictability, you can’t “unsee” what becomes obvious. The same lens that revealed cracks in the narrative then reveals structural failures now.  The dots we connected are forming a much larger picture — one where facades cannot withstand scrutiny, and where the unraveling of long-protected illusions feels less like chaos and more like consequence.

There is so much to process right now with the falling of many important figures in the world.  In my January 2026 musings, I explained how the ballroom façade is coming down.  We are finding out many houses were built with false foundations.  “The Wizard of Oz” written by L. Frank Baum, is not just a child’s story, it’s a commentary on the world around us.  Fortunately, this time the wizard’s game is up, and the yellow brick road led us to awaken to the truth.  True power lies within, not in the illusions created by those behind the curtain.

Jenny Schiltz reminds us:  “When collective architecture starts to crack, the nervous system responds. The emotional body responds. Old grief, old rage, old shock that was never processed because there was no space to process it begins to rise”. 

There are intense trauma/ancestral energies happening right now along with all the smoke & mirrors of our own Oz-like institutions.  Marconics founder Lisa Wilson says: “the persecution programs at play right now are a great catalyst to release those same or similar programs from old traumas stored in your DNA (this lifetime especially but also past lifetimes).” 

Speaking of DNA…whoever unleashed covid from the lab in Wuhan unleashed a lot more than a virus!  Many of my family & friends thought I was bat-sh*t crazy (pun intended) at the time but REAL data has proved my intuition (and spirit guidance) correct.

The Con-vid

Intense energies express themselves through real-world crises that test discernment, autonomy, and fear responses.  The rapid rollout of mRNA gene therapy (not a traditional vaccine) can be viewed not just as a public health chapter, but as a profound psychological and societal turning point that revealed how deeply those underlying programs influence perception, trust & choice.  In 1990, after the 1986 National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act was passed, the FDA delivered a system to track vaccine injuries.  After the 2021 mRNA rollout, the VAERS database swelled with 1.7M reports of covid jab injuries and the same “experts” started attacking the monitoring system THEY built to report bad reactions to injections.

The censorship machine behind the covid shots was so vast that there were few voices bringing attention to the biggest medical catastrophe in history.  The New York Times (NYT) lectured everybody for 5 years about how wonderful mRNA shots were and labeled anyone who questioned them as anti-science conspiracy theorists.  However, many of us did our own research and followed the whistleblowers warnings.  Now the long-term consequences are piling up and even the NYT are saying the injuries are real, there’s no system to track them properly, there’s no diagnostic code to document them, there are no clinical guidelines to treat them, and the confidential report was written with a “sense of urgency”.  A recent Rasmussen survey found that 56% of Americans believe the covid jabs caused large numbers of deaths.

The phrase “safe & effective” became a slogan, not a technical statement.  Many people interpreted it as no meaningful risk, which was never scientifically accurate because there were no long-term studies or data at the time to support that claim.  The slogan stuck longer than the evidence justified.

Between 1950-2017, approximately 250 medicines were withdrawn from markets worldwide for safety reasons such as liver, heart, or severe immune toxicity.  For example, have you heard of the Cutter Incident?  In 1955, over 100,000 kids got injected with a polio vaccine, leading to 40,000 cases of polio, 200 cases of paralysis, and at least 10 deaths.  It was one of the worst vaccine-related pharmaceutical disasters in U.S. history.

In 2020, humanity was hit by dual biological weapons.  1) China-USA gain of function collaboratively manufactured SARS-CoV-2 virus, and 2) mRNA gene therapy vaccine “countermeasures”.  Billions are now suffering (including my hubby) from these biowarfare agents.  And there’s still zero accountability. 

A long history exists of a wave of severe injuries following new medical interventions being introduced to the market.  In most cases, those injuries were swept under the rug to protect the businesses.

Public skepticism around vaccines didn’t arise in a vacuum. History shows that governments, corporations, and medical institutions have lied, minimized harm, or prioritized expediency over transparency (i.e. Tuskegee, opioid marketing, tobacco). Because of that history, questioning large-scale medical programs is not inherently conspiratorial, it’s a rational response to past breaches of trust.

Institutions like the Centers for Disease Control & Prevention (CDC) and the Food & Drug Administration (FDA) operate within political, economic, and logistical constraints. Their messaging is often simplified, defensive, or slow to acknowledge uncertainty. That gap between complexity and messaging is where suspicion grows.

Healthy skepticism asks better questions AND updates beliefs as evidence evolves.  When skepticism hardens into certainty without evidence, we stop inquiring and start introducing ideology.  This is called Scientism, which is not real science. Dr. Simon says:  “It’s when science is turned into an unquestionable ideology or belief system, treated like a new religion where authorities are worshiped and dissent is forbidden.”

He says the key features of scientism include:

• Blind trust in "experts" without evidence.

• Suppression of critical questioning.

• Censorship of alternative hypotheses or inconvenient findings.

• Dogmatic belief in models or authority statements rather than open debate.

• Political capture of science to serve narratives.

• Punishment of dissenters — by firing, canceling, exiling.

History gives us reason to be cautious.  However, the real danger is the loss of discernment.

“A good conspiracy is unprovable.  I mean, if you can prove it, it means they screwed up somewhere along the line.”

~ Mel Gibson

Let's also question the odds of the past 10 years…the conspiracy theorists are like 592 to 0.

To paraphrase Scott Compton:  Here's what's fun about speculations. For a speculation to move anywhere substantial, evidence needs to be presented and confirmed over time.  It's the ego's desire to think in absolutes about any topic.  Instead of thinking in terms of 100% or 0%, 1s & 0s, black or white, on or off, and other knee jerk reactions, it's a better mindset to say, "this is super-likely, very likely, kind of likely, sort of 50/50, kinda unlikely, very unlikely, super unlikely," when there's only speculation.

Recognizing the ego's desire to "be right" is part of the awakening and unveiling process. Those who create psyops and turn people into their pawns by turning off critical thinking with absolutes. The better path is to remain open-minded and questioning rather than getting the ego involved (hold the paradox).

Conspiracy theories, cosmological contemplations, and some interpretations of quantum mechanics all appeal to the idea that “what you see is not all there is.”

Quantum mechanics, with its uncertainty & entanglement theories, shows that reality does not necessarily match everyday intuition.

Yogic philosophy emphasizes direct inner inquiry, seeing consciousness itself as the primary field of exploration.  Whereas shamanic worldviews focus on relationships (with the land, spirits, ancestors, and altered states) as a way of navigating visible and invisible worlds – the ordinary and the non-ordinary.

Humans are drawn to hidden patterns and secret causes, and that impulse can lead either to creative insight or to misguided certainty.  Quantum ideas, yogic practice, and shamanic cosmology don’t offer secret answers, they ask us to stay curious.  They cultivate the ability to hold paradox without rushing to conclusions.  I hope this month’s musing invites you to hold big questions lightly but seriously, staying curious without abandoning critical thinking, and staying open while balancing skepticism.  I encourage you to explore radical ideas while checking sources, examining motives (follow the money), noticing emotional triggers, and questioning your own assumptions.  And…DYOR!!!  (Do Your Own Research)

Final tip:  Consider doing a one-minute mediation for World Peace every day at the same time.  Connect with nature to stay grounded and be the calm within the chaos.  Focus on the GOOD stuff.  Let reality sort itself out and trust that better days are headed our way.  

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